I'm seeking something meaningful it's deeper than
myself as a human and a man
trying to get to know...
trying to get to know...
A girl who only had men trying to get in her pants
I only want her to understand
I'm not sayin' this to sound smooth or nice
Inspite of her inner gripes she deserves a
Man who's polite
But she fights...herself
Scared of a man who'll do her right
But she's still so uptight
Pessismisstic and materialistic her inner demons
Are so persistent
So I'm a let her talk let her get it out
She seems so distant
So I'm a shut up and listen
Big fish small pond so I'm fishin'
For greater visions of her and speaking light
Until we have to take intermissions
What's your passion?What's your middle name?Where You from?Who You from?
no question you ask is dumb
I march to the beat of a different drum
No hollow sounds just deep thoughts...
We share together no small talk I know the weather
You glow when you speak and deserve something...
You can feel
So I'll pause...to be real
Let You know the deal
We can look at each other Ill give you eye contact
Don't look away you deserve my attention it'll be okay
Don't run away
I see your emotions right on your sleeve
Your heart is calling to me and pumping to BREATH
You beleievin' in me?
Then we can both be true to ourselves
I know your worth potential is dangerous
It started at birth
We all want to know our place on this Earth
Your priceless
Used to dudes being mindless
In the process you regress be stressed
Never envisioning palm trees on your EGRESS
Telling you what you should know
You didn't you should know
Your wonderful in every way
That guys don't have to brighten up your day
You should gain independence from adolescence
Capture the key unlock your true transgressions
While taming your obsessions
Not telling you what you should do
Baggage is something you dont have to hold on to
R.E.A.L is something you should run to
Your futures so bright deep convos
Reiterating Everything Associated With Life!
First impressions are must I must develop trust
You can't beleive in me before you beleive in you
You is something I can deal with cuz'
Once you reveal your heart I want it open
Not cuz' I wanna steal it
Not to sound soft but I want to nurture it
Our minds we can further them
Say the magic words Ill be there first thing
You are the 2nd Queen my moms first she's been there since birth
Bringin' up this King but this one thing I'm trying to get to know you
Mainly to grow not fuck you over bend and fold you
Really wanna hold you no one died Ill still console you
Our proximity to like is close to more than flirtin',lovin',kissin', or huggin'
Your heartstrings are in flux and tuggin'
Your so done with loving so young and unforgiving
Emotions in need of babysitting
Not being rude but honest
Ill build you up not tear you down I smile you smile frowns UpSide DowN
Ive matured I think right Side Up
She feels better just her luck
Dont feel lucky to get respect even if your father was negligent
Dont let some guy show you disrespect
Love URSELF know UR Worth thats my politics
Its not deep its common sense
Kinda reminds me of 'The Light' by Common Sense
"It shines special for you" a reference fresh and special for you
Now you know that H.E.R. isn't only a acronym for Her Every Right
If you dont call me every nite its okay you deserve your space I wont get upset
Spontaneity is what keeps it hot
Ill try hard not to crumble Ill be your rock
Trying to get to know
Trying to get to know
But ill never know if you dont show
Together we can grow
So dont hide what you know!
Be real with J-O or rather you call me JT?
Its whatever floats your boat
Whatever air comes out your lungs
Past your lips think about it
Dont start losing or rather losing me
Im used to being that QUIET 1 deep in thought pondering
Not conjuring a plan but being mindful your used to being minful too
Listen to IT...I like HER
There I saID it
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
Willie Fired?!?!?!?
Needless to say I am very upset right now. Not only because I know how good a guy Willie Randolph was but also because it was in the middle of a road trip. He got fired last night, and even though Omar knows he's wrong, and will most certainly lose his job next it kills me to know he's left this Mets organization in shambles for who knows how long. What would have happened if we would have kept Brian Bannister? Who is Ambiorix Burgos? Bannister made 3 starts went 2-1 then pulled a hamstring only to get traded for a guy with a live arm but bad mechanics.
Bannister was one of bright spots on an underacheiving Kansas City team. Burgos had Tommy John, another reason why Rick Peterson also lost his job, because of his handling of the picthers even though Burgos injury had nothing to do with him there were plenty of things Peterson was faulted for. He said he could "fix" Victor Zambrano(no relation to Carlos) in 10 minutes ,and the Mets traded prospect Scott Kazmir to the Rays for him. A year and change later Zambrano is out of baseball and Kazmir is racking up K's as the Rays ace. He also didn't realize what he had in Heath Bell. Bell and Peterson didn't have a good relationship, and Bell was rarely used. Minaya (of course) traded him to San Diego for two players that had cups of coffee in the majors, and Bell is ready to close games in San Diego.
This firing makes me upset becuase it was after a win, again on the road, and because the majority of the Mets who are Latino have no alliance to a black guy from Brooklyn and some are secretly doing the salsa. One source close to some Met players told me backup Mets catcher Ramon Castro said "F--k Willie I get my money that's it f--k Willie". Coincidentally Castro also got a hefty contract from his boy Omar, who is also faulted for making an incredibly stupid trade when with the Expos. But this is today's stupid, so I need not go on a tangent.
It is easy to say Willie had "no fire" he wasn't a cheerleader like a Bobby Cox or outspoken like a Ozzie Guillen. He was a lot of things, a bad manger he was not. He had two World Series rings with the Yankees, and had 18 years of playoff expierience with the Pirates,Yankees and Oakland. He even played his last year with the Mets in 92'. After his playing career he was an Assistant G.M. with the Yankees in 93' and was a 3rd base coach with the Yankees for 11 years. A number of teams turned Willie down when he was seeking a position as head coach, and Torre wasn't going anywhere. Eventually the Mets gave Willie a look, partially because they thought they could control him according to their plan. They wanted to win, and they didn't want someone outspoken like Bobby Valentine especially after no postseason since 2000. They instead got a man who had his own plan and wanted to manage his team according to his way and not rely on the front office to
puppet his moves. That's why they didn't hire Jim Leyland who was available before excepting the Tigers coaching job. They wanted someone like Willie. Unfortunately for them it wasn't the Willie they thought they were getting.
Willie did a good job as Mets coach and led them to within a game of the World Series in 06', and even survived the historic Met collapse last year. In 2006 the Mets were featured on the cover of Sports Illustrated and boasted that they were a melting pot of races, and cultures. That diversity is non-existent now especially when 85% of the Mets players and bench coaches are hispanic. From Willies perspective I would think it would be terribly difficult to manage a team that speaks spanish over you. Minaya has seperated the clubhouse and made it so that the star hispanic players are in their comfort zone.
Minaya will be long gone to see how the Johan deal pans out whether he's the best pitcher in baseball or not we still have him for the next 5 years! Omar Minaya signed Luis Castillo to a 4 year contract extension. The man played 50 games!. He got traded at the deadline and was a great addition hitting behind Reyes but he' had reoccuring knee injuries is lazy in the field , and does knee bends after every pitch. Some of his lazy work ethic has rubbed off on Reyes who has 12 errors before the All-Star break. Castillo has no incentive to play hard at all. Minaya held down his "boys" by handing that deal to Luis when he knows his market value was a lot smaller if the Metropolitans would have let him become a free agent. I also read an article on ESPN.com that the price paid for Castillo would have been better used to aquire Orlando Hudson who is a free-agent in the offseason and would have taken less money to come to N.Y.
Not only would the potential addition of Hudson been great for the clubhouse because he's a great leader but it would have been fiscally responsible, which Omar is not. To fill the void at second base this year they could have kept Ruben Gotay and had some sort of platoon at second.
There are a lot more issues going on with the Mets and this front office that Omar is making worse by making moves that suits him instead of the interest of the team. I'm not going to say he's a bad G.M. He's just made poor decisions like all of us have without the reponsiblity of a franchise. He will be gone next and we can sit back and look at his tenure as G.M.. The resigining of Guirellmo Mota after getting caught taking steroids(still eating contract) the plethora of bad trades and now the firing of Randolph who the Mets now have to buy out(owed 2 million).
You would have to think that even if the Mets aren't going to make the playoffs that Jerry Manuel will be the Mets next coach. He has been a bench coach with the Mets since 06' and was Manager of the year in 2000 when he led the White Sox to a 95-67 record. Even if Omar is gone Manuel will be leading "Los Mets" next year, I just wish Willie would have gotten the benefit of the doubt. When he pulled the "race card" it didn't help him either but now he can manage some place that wants him. With all the "fire Willie" chants at Shea every Met fan that woke up and heard this is shocked because it so sudden. Now the man's out of a job, does that light your fire?
Bannister was one of bright spots on an underacheiving Kansas City team. Burgos had Tommy John, another reason why Rick Peterson also lost his job, because of his handling of the picthers even though Burgos injury had nothing to do with him there were plenty of things Peterson was faulted for. He said he could "fix" Victor Zambrano(no relation to Carlos) in 10 minutes ,and the Mets traded prospect Scott Kazmir to the Rays for him. A year and change later Zambrano is out of baseball and Kazmir is racking up K's as the Rays ace. He also didn't realize what he had in Heath Bell. Bell and Peterson didn't have a good relationship, and Bell was rarely used. Minaya (of course) traded him to San Diego for two players that had cups of coffee in the majors, and Bell is ready to close games in San Diego.
This firing makes me upset becuase it was after a win, again on the road, and because the majority of the Mets who are Latino have no alliance to a black guy from Brooklyn and some are secretly doing the salsa. One source close to some Met players told me backup Mets catcher Ramon Castro said "F--k Willie I get my money that's it f--k Willie". Coincidentally Castro also got a hefty contract from his boy Omar, who is also faulted for making an incredibly stupid trade when with the Expos. But this is today's stupid, so I need not go on a tangent.
It is easy to say Willie had "no fire" he wasn't a cheerleader like a Bobby Cox or outspoken like a Ozzie Guillen. He was a lot of things, a bad manger he was not. He had two World Series rings with the Yankees, and had 18 years of playoff expierience with the Pirates,Yankees and Oakland. He even played his last year with the Mets in 92'. After his playing career he was an Assistant G.M. with the Yankees in 93' and was a 3rd base coach with the Yankees for 11 years. A number of teams turned Willie down when he was seeking a position as head coach, and Torre wasn't going anywhere. Eventually the Mets gave Willie a look, partially because they thought they could control him according to their plan. They wanted to win, and they didn't want someone outspoken like Bobby Valentine especially after no postseason since 2000. They instead got a man who had his own plan and wanted to manage his team according to his way and not rely on the front office to
puppet his moves. That's why they didn't hire Jim Leyland who was available before excepting the Tigers coaching job. They wanted someone like Willie. Unfortunately for them it wasn't the Willie they thought they were getting.
Willie did a good job as Mets coach and led them to within a game of the World Series in 06', and even survived the historic Met collapse last year. In 2006 the Mets were featured on the cover of Sports Illustrated and boasted that they were a melting pot of races, and cultures. That diversity is non-existent now especially when 85% of the Mets players and bench coaches are hispanic. From Willies perspective I would think it would be terribly difficult to manage a team that speaks spanish over you. Minaya has seperated the clubhouse and made it so that the star hispanic players are in their comfort zone.
Minaya will be long gone to see how the Johan deal pans out whether he's the best pitcher in baseball or not we still have him for the next 5 years! Omar Minaya signed Luis Castillo to a 4 year contract extension. The man played 50 games!. He got traded at the deadline and was a great addition hitting behind Reyes but he' had reoccuring knee injuries is lazy in the field , and does knee bends after every pitch. Some of his lazy work ethic has rubbed off on Reyes who has 12 errors before the All-Star break. Castillo has no incentive to play hard at all. Minaya held down his "boys" by handing that deal to Luis when he knows his market value was a lot smaller if the Metropolitans would have let him become a free agent. I also read an article on ESPN.com that the price paid for Castillo would have been better used to aquire Orlando Hudson who is a free-agent in the offseason and would have taken less money to come to N.Y.
Not only would the potential addition of Hudson been great for the clubhouse because he's a great leader but it would have been fiscally responsible, which Omar is not. To fill the void at second base this year they could have kept Ruben Gotay and had some sort of platoon at second.
There are a lot more issues going on with the Mets and this front office that Omar is making worse by making moves that suits him instead of the interest of the team. I'm not going to say he's a bad G.M. He's just made poor decisions like all of us have without the reponsiblity of a franchise. He will be gone next and we can sit back and look at his tenure as G.M.. The resigining of Guirellmo Mota after getting caught taking steroids(still eating contract) the plethora of bad trades and now the firing of Randolph who the Mets now have to buy out(owed 2 million).
You would have to think that even if the Mets aren't going to make the playoffs that Jerry Manuel will be the Mets next coach. He has been a bench coach with the Mets since 06' and was Manager of the year in 2000 when he led the White Sox to a 95-67 record. Even if Omar is gone Manuel will be leading "Los Mets" next year, I just wish Willie would have gotten the benefit of the doubt. When he pulled the "race card" it didn't help him either but now he can manage some place that wants him. With all the "fire Willie" chants at Shea every Met fan that woke up and heard this is shocked because it so sudden. Now the man's out of a job, does that light your fire?
Monday, March 3, 2008
A...The...It
A baby
The parent
It believes
A life
The struggles
It bellows
A fellow
The hurt
It turns
A lie
The lie
It ties
A person
The insides
It kills
A will
The want
It wants
A home
The drugs
It lives inside
A teen
The sirens
It follows
A adolescent
The young
It haunts
A taunt
The abuse
It tears
A soul
The hard
It makes
A dealer
The squealer
It turns
A child
The child
It burns
A hole
The whole
It grows
A mind
The mind
It slows
A drug
The drugs
It does
A love
The love
It loves
A love
The doves
It flys
A dream dies
The dreams die
It kills dreams
A loud gunshot
The siren gets loud
It makes loud noises
A scenes all blurry
The blocks all bloody
It makes tears fall
A bullet wounds
The bullet hurts
It tears
A tear
The fam
It sees
A person
The person
It sees
A reflection
The image
It perceives
A self-concept
The concept
It concerns
A generation
The first
It suceeds
A last
The first it dies
A lifestyle
The thought
It thinks
A gun is cool
The hurting of whom
It kills the innocent
A black and metal
The souless
It has no bias
A assasins asylum
The madness
It hurts
A lifetime
The thought process
It turns insane
A brain
The brain
Its too late to think
A shrink
A couch
A pad
A chair
The mental
The insane
The revisited
The incubated
It demonstrated
It explained
The process
A night
It showed
A inebriated night
A night with fight
A life with trife
The love you left for
The life you loved
It starts from parent
It takes two for one
A single parent
The pain it caused
A hard time differentiating
The Ma's and Pa's
A mom's the Ma and Pa
The mom was hurt
A blame for herself
A blame and felt
It felt like knives
It felt like fires
It felt like failure
A failure of self
A failure of child
The hope for child
It is more than hope
A prayer to God
A prayer is answered
A smile on child
It loves
The child
The parent
The love
The potential
The realization
The matrimony
A matrimony
It is of hard work and faith
The coming together of both
A prayer for one is hope for all
It is never too small or too big
The love for him
A message
A bottle
A letter
It got to him
A better understanding for all!
The parent
It believes
A life
The struggles
It bellows
A fellow
The hurt
It turns
A lie
The lie
It ties
A person
The insides
It kills
A will
The want
It wants
A home
The drugs
It lives inside
A teen
The sirens
It follows
A adolescent
The young
It haunts
A taunt
The abuse
It tears
A soul
The hard
It makes
A dealer
The squealer
It turns
A child
The child
It burns
A hole
The whole
It grows
A mind
The mind
It slows
A drug
The drugs
It does
A love
The love
It loves
A love
The doves
It flys
A dream dies
The dreams die
It kills dreams
A loud gunshot
The siren gets loud
It makes loud noises
A scenes all blurry
The blocks all bloody
It makes tears fall
A bullet wounds
The bullet hurts
It tears
A tear
The fam
It sees
A person
The person
It sees
A reflection
The image
It perceives
A self-concept
The concept
It concerns
A generation
The first
It suceeds
A last
The first it dies
A lifestyle
The thought
It thinks
A gun is cool
The hurting of whom
It kills the innocent
A black and metal
The souless
It has no bias
A assasins asylum
The madness
It hurts
A lifetime
The thought process
It turns insane
A brain
The brain
Its too late to think
A shrink
A couch
A pad
A chair
The mental
The insane
The revisited
The incubated
It demonstrated
It explained
The process
A night
It showed
A inebriated night
A night with fight
A life with trife
The love you left for
The life you loved
It starts from parent
It takes two for one
A single parent
The pain it caused
A hard time differentiating
The Ma's and Pa's
A mom's the Ma and Pa
The mom was hurt
A blame for herself
A blame and felt
It felt like knives
It felt like fires
It felt like failure
A failure of self
A failure of child
The hope for child
It is more than hope
A prayer to God
A prayer is answered
A smile on child
It loves
The child
The parent
The love
The potential
The realization
The matrimony
A matrimony
It is of hard work and faith
The coming together of both
A prayer for one is hope for all
It is never too small or too big
The love for him
A message
A bottle
A letter
It got to him
A better understanding for all!
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Deep Breathing,Streets screaming
If you know what it held
than you know how he felt
cause' the hand he was dealt
made him feel pain that he felt
and the translation was stealth
didn't see it coming the transformation
It happened so fast so fast too fast
too fast and it was painful becuase
he couldn't understand himself for him
what he wanted to be his soul was in
chains cause' he was feeling pain
was aching for things things of
the world anaerobic bacteria yes
non-living things it was a hidden agenda
wanted to roll with spenders and pollute
the beggars
thought it was cool to solicitate with vendors
they were cold-hearted beings not meant
for the world
like I said the crooks had cruel criterion
everyday was a test a beleif in flesh led to
death whats left is meth and cocaine
amongst that crack left from corners
that gave out drug daps and money like it was
fauceted through taps
everyday drank and everybody drowned
when there was a drought sufferers were lost
but never found several feet in the ground,
their feet were shackled
nailed to firey eternities
like stigmata replaced by the streets
they hurt so do you
with mushy food and bad diets you might as well
eat fried everything
even your gray matter is burnt out
your body is wahed up and lifes a beach at first
than you see your potential wash up than your not shore
its not all its cracked up to be
I'm trying to use my energy
thats why my pens with me
I've arrived I'm not a statistic
I could be somewhere in cold places
where tough guys can't survive because
"tough guys" give screwfaces and scumbags and murderers
use sharp dental tools to give long distance telephones
that may start beyond a brother brow
he was in gods image once beautiful and brown
with a smile that could light up the ocean floor
now he full of grimaces, fast thoughts,paranoia and false witnesses
he's a muslim with a big brother named Bubba and will
be in there longer because of a fella named Dubya
and his conscience half-way through his sentence has awoken
out of its slumber
come out of it is reality and landed back to sanity
but wait
his craftiness and player mentality went like symbiosis
and attached itself to tragedy
and all his past agressions moved like a caravan
this nomadic fad obsessed bogeyman
home is not recognized so instead of working for currency
he's plotting currently for revisitation and waiting for smarter ways
to slip past and make wiser decisions
Never get caught if your not cheating your not trying
if your out dying and fighting you failed yourself
and his tale is grim realization of failure
hearts black as coal
skin brown as earth he stepped on
when he wanted clientel that served him well and did him well
for a short time but trife
last for eons and so did the consequences because
the reasons for his undoing was now in perspective
coughing up blood it just...
went in his back came out his juggular now he didnt have to have
lead poisining for bullets to live and be stuck in him
its because of him that the outcome is so numb and so meaningless
streets will scream with this and the game has creeps with it
and its so grainy and painful thats the feeling of regret it gave
forever a slave to mentality that gave him a ghetto outlook
even kris-kross would see his backwards thinking
ause' all the liquor and the chemicals left his brain shrinking
and the parylization made it difficult
for blinking but more difficult for breathing
he should have rethought the path of his life
now he gas some quality time to do mental teething but
hes a small planet distant in the universe trying to get
off the teet of the Milky Way and you know what?
He JUST MIGHT BE OKAY?
than you know how he felt
cause' the hand he was dealt
made him feel pain that he felt
and the translation was stealth
didn't see it coming the transformation
It happened so fast so fast too fast
too fast and it was painful becuase
he couldn't understand himself for him
what he wanted to be his soul was in
chains cause' he was feeling pain
was aching for things things of
the world anaerobic bacteria yes
non-living things it was a hidden agenda
wanted to roll with spenders and pollute
the beggars
thought it was cool to solicitate with vendors
they were cold-hearted beings not meant
for the world
like I said the crooks had cruel criterion
everyday was a test a beleif in flesh led to
death whats left is meth and cocaine
amongst that crack left from corners
that gave out drug daps and money like it was
fauceted through taps
everyday drank and everybody drowned
when there was a drought sufferers were lost
but never found several feet in the ground,
their feet were shackled
nailed to firey eternities
like stigmata replaced by the streets
they hurt so do you
with mushy food and bad diets you might as well
eat fried everything
even your gray matter is burnt out
your body is wahed up and lifes a beach at first
than you see your potential wash up than your not shore
its not all its cracked up to be
I'm trying to use my energy
thats why my pens with me
I've arrived I'm not a statistic
I could be somewhere in cold places
where tough guys can't survive because
"tough guys" give screwfaces and scumbags and murderers
use sharp dental tools to give long distance telephones
that may start beyond a brother brow
he was in gods image once beautiful and brown
with a smile that could light up the ocean floor
now he full of grimaces, fast thoughts,paranoia and false witnesses
he's a muslim with a big brother named Bubba and will
be in there longer because of a fella named Dubya
and his conscience half-way through his sentence has awoken
out of its slumber
come out of it is reality and landed back to sanity
but wait
his craftiness and player mentality went like symbiosis
and attached itself to tragedy
and all his past agressions moved like a caravan
this nomadic fad obsessed bogeyman
home is not recognized so instead of working for currency
he's plotting currently for revisitation and waiting for smarter ways
to slip past and make wiser decisions
Never get caught if your not cheating your not trying
if your out dying and fighting you failed yourself
and his tale is grim realization of failure
hearts black as coal
skin brown as earth he stepped on
when he wanted clientel that served him well and did him well
for a short time but trife
last for eons and so did the consequences because
the reasons for his undoing was now in perspective
coughing up blood it just...
went in his back came out his juggular now he didnt have to have
lead poisining for bullets to live and be stuck in him
its because of him that the outcome is so numb and so meaningless
streets will scream with this and the game has creeps with it
and its so grainy and painful thats the feeling of regret it gave
forever a slave to mentality that gave him a ghetto outlook
even kris-kross would see his backwards thinking
ause' all the liquor and the chemicals left his brain shrinking
and the parylization made it difficult
for blinking but more difficult for breathing
he should have rethought the path of his life
now he gas some quality time to do mental teething but
hes a small planet distant in the universe trying to get
off the teet of the Milky Way and you know what?
He JUST MIGHT BE OKAY?
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